By Ashley Wright | February 26, 2014 5 Comments

There are times in which I feel forced to write.

And then there are times that I become so consumed with what I am feeling that my jumbled thoughts and confusion race back and forth in my mind at lightning speed, My breaths become short and my heart picks up pace.  I’m having a panic/anxiety attack… Breathe Ashley Breathe.

I have no choice but to write

 

Deep Inhale…. Sigh it out Loud…SIIIIIGGGHHH

 

Why does this happen to me? Isn’t this what I asked for? Please tell me the timing is right? There is no better time than now, right? I thought I was staying ready…. Oh Ashley smh.   The fear of the unknown consumes me. It makes me flee. Do I push past this or do I acknowledge it and just wait? So many questions.

Where is the freaking manual for this shit?!

Feeling like a rose in the desert; beautiful, strong…  yet Alone.  Too scared to have anything else grow next to me in fear it may take away my life supply. 

I can’t keep running away. One day at a time Ashley.  One day at a time. Focus on the breath.  Inhale all that is good and calm. Exhale all that doesn’t serve me.

One day at a time Ashley. One day at a time.